Feeling Like Giving Up

I've been so tired this last month that paying our bills and our budget has fallen apart and I still can't figure out where it went wrong.

Normally people would be able to have a spouse help them with figuring money stuff out but I don't. Every time we have trouble with cash flow PJ retreats in himself and expects me to fix it all without help. I normally still fall him around giving him the info whether he wants it or not. I'm so tired right now though. I'm preggo and trying to bring in more money and I just can't do it right now.

I just have ran out of the energy to keep pushing him towards normalcy. I have been so tired this last 2 months every thing has fallen apart financially. I'm so normally so good at it. Then when I start falling behind instead of supporting me and helping me he just retreats and pushes me away. In this moment I just want to do nothing. I don't want to pay bills, I don't want to push him, I don't want to plan for our next move and I don't to think about the future.

I just want to play with my son and be ignorant to the situation I'm in. And I'm never like that, I've always been a optimistic plan every move kind of person.

It's exhausting and it's only the 4th day of the year. The joys of being married to someone with PTSD.